So I had autism all my life, but my parents did not tell me until I was 10; and ever since then I started hating myself. I literally had a miserable childhood because I could not accept myself this way.
Whenever I said something that seemed weird, or whenever autism came up, I started to beat myself up. I would literally slam my face in the door because of how god made me. Also as a kid, I refused to play with other kids and was inside studying 9 hours a day because I thought I was "stupid".
Now I am 19 and not happy. I am always trying to "change" myself instead of being myself. I cannot stop saying negative things and don't know what to do? Can someone please help me?
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Since you can use language and type, yours must be a mild form on the Autism Disorder Spectrum. Like maybe Asperger's. Take comfort in that. One 12-year old autistic in my building doesn't talk, and he craps his pants. Bounces a basketball against the wall for hours. You're on the lucky side.
see a COUNSLER ! they can help you cope with so much of what you are going through. a therapist has helped me through so much and they will give you the coping skills to be happy with yourself . trust me, you deserve to be happy and you will be happy. please get some outside help