so my brother went off to college about three years ago. at first it wasn't that bad. i still called and stuff. but now that we're both older, we really understand what we mean to each other. he texts me the nicest things like "i hope were not the type of brother and sister that grow apart from each other". it makes me cry sometimes honestly. it's not that i just miss having him around the house, but i miss the old "him". when he was in high school (we're seven years apart btw), he used to be such a different person. he'd be outgoing and funny and super immature which is how i like having him. thats the brother that i've known since the dayi was born. he calls me princess and loser and seastar when i talk to him and i love the fact that we're cool like that. he lives in Santa Cruz while I live in Los Angeles so it's not like i get to see him everyday. i write to him all the time, not just text messages, but also letters. i miss the presence of the high school brother i had at one time. i miss the days when i knew him as the bass playing, mustang driving, actor, pole vaulting brother. now i know him as the super chill, depressed, politician. everytime he visits, it just gets awkward. hes always upset and he never wants to talk. when he does talk its always about his depressin (i won't go into detail about this). this has been dawning on me for a couple months now. everyday since then, i wonder what happened to the most wonderfull brother in the world?