Ok, so I have 2 problems. At first I thought I was addicted to hentai, but that wasn't exactly the case: I think I'm addicted to a girl in my school. I've been looking at hentai for about 3 years and haven't really gotten addicted, I usually don't even feel like watching it and when I do it's becuase I enjoy it, not addicted. One thing's for sure: I don't seem to like girls, attracted to them. I thought maybe it was because I'm so bad with relationships and all, so I pretended to dislike relationships and romance. But there's this one girl... god. I can't explain it except that I feel it's the only female I'll ever love this way. I've been through some HARD months. If you know the term "lovesick", well, I overpowered it, and I think thats pretty impressive. Now I still love her the way I do, but it's becomeing weird. I masturbate to hentai maybe once a week, sometimes I don't masturbate cuz I just love how beautiful it is, but the main problem is that all I seem to love is this girl and hentai: that's really weird. I feel like I'm in a slight hentai addiction, and I'm trying to overcome it. But the addiction to the girl is stronger: I SERIOUSLY feel that this is the only girl I'll ever love, and I've NEVER felt even CLOSE to this. Now I know I'm not OVERLY addicted to these things: I have friends, I'm a dedicated music fan, play guitar, love reading,even enjoy school, but sometimes I go into a diferent personality: one that is depressed and obsessed. Sometimes I feel normal and great, then I'll become angry with the world and only care about this girl and hentai. But the biggest problem is that I feel I can't really fall in love to anyone else. I dont think im schizophrenic or anything: but ive noticed I'm only normal when I'm not thinking about the girl, and the hentai thing is just a minor problem, I'm strong and could probly get over that for life. Anyway, I'm 14, anybody have any idea if something's wrong with me? Well, I KNOW that i'm not "LOVESICK" cuz I 've been through it, it's way worse, I don't know if I'm jjust moody, but I SERIOUSLY can't control those terrible moods. Note that during those moods I usually listen to death metal, lol. Also that I don't really enjoy as erotic hentai, ust the BEAUTIFUL stuff, I just love things that are beautiful, but I wish hentai wasn't one of them, and real porn sucks cuz all the girls r sluts and aren't beautiful, even if it turns me on. I wanna love this girl but not love hentai, it's a strange mix, and whenever I'm around her I'm depressed and I feel sad in a "This girl will never love me" sort of way, and I don't want her to see me like that. I'm not asking for love advice, I can handle that myself, but I want these feelings to go away and to quit hentai.
Update:Oh, and also I'm pretty social too and I get out a LOT. I love basketball, soccer, and biking and skiing too. I'm outside most of the time and I'm not at home as much as with friends
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Feeling differently about different things at times does not make you schizophrenic. Having hallucinations does. Everyone's perceptions change depending on mood.
Okay, about the girl... Have you ever talked to her? I think you need to become friends with her. It will break down these feelings that separate the two of you. It might even lead to a relationship. At least when you are near her, build up all your courage, look at her, and smile. Hopefully she will smile back. If she doesn't, though, it's not a big deal. Just tell yourself you are good enough for her. Convince yourself.
And about the hentai... Nothing is wrong with it. You said yourself that you're not overly addicted. If it's not interfering with your quality of life (as in you skip school to watch, think only about it, etc.) you are fine. It's not even a bad thing. I watch hentai occasionally, although I watch more regular porn (and you can find beautiful girls on porn, but they are hard to come by.) I don't see why you want to stop it. There's nothing wrong with it or masturbation.
I think there is nothing wrong with you except you need to accept who you are.
p.s. I like the Mars Volta too. :3
Sorry if my reply doesnt exactly answer your question but i just want to let you know i have pretty much the same problem, i am 16 years old and i have fallen in love with girls over the course of my life but sometimes i never talk to them i just have a silent passion (for the lack of a better word). Anyways i have always since turning a teenager looked at hentai for almost the same reason you have, i like to look at beautiful girls that always look like they are googly eyed lovers, but for some reason i never got the same way with normal pornography, the girls are never as sexy as the animated girls in hentai, even though i did occasionally look at normal porn, but i dont see my looking at hentai as an obsession or an addiction, i just like to watch beautiful animated girls having sex as opposed to normal girls. And i aswell have always been active with friends and sports i have a quad and used to ride it quite a bit and a snowboard which ive had for a while aswell, i think my problem is since ive recently moved and my dad quit his job which made it so cant do all the things i used to be able to do like have high speed internet and be able to hang out with my best friends so now i just go to school like everyother day come home and watch tv and go to bed. What do i do to have an outlet? i watch hentai and surf the web on dial up. When i had high speed i watched hentai much more frequently but now i just dont have anything to do and i dont have my best friends anymore so i dont really talk to people and try to interact as much for some reason, but i am happy that i have cut some of my urges at least. But i also think i will be a lot happier once i move out, that way i will have freedoms and can start making my life better and stop worrying about random things that trail my line of thought away from whats really important in my life, thanks for reading and i hope you can also become better and learn a few lessons from this too.
for the hentai watch your brain on porn .com
it may seem like you not addicted and that is true stop now for the rest of your life. I wish I had but still the website goes into the science of how looking at porn alters the brain
You're nothing even close to schizophrenic. I don't know where you got that idea. You're just a lovesick teenager who needs to get out more.