Ok, so sometimes I keep getting these random weird nostalgic feelings that I being to feel somewhat depressed and lonely about. Like I start thinking how fun it was to play with legos and race cars and for some reason now its completely boring and not fun. I am only 18 so its not like I am old. Also, I always think how when I was like 10 or 11 everything in life was just splendid and I didn't have any problems at all. Also, sometimes I think of wanting to be an inspiration to others and be a good moral man since I grew up with a Christian family, however, it seems like I don't do that. Right now, I am going to be a senior in high school, I have no money for a university so I'll probably end up going to a community college, I lost most of my friends when I moved to a new school and home during freshman year in high school, I think I might have developed social anxiety disorder, and I have started smoking weed with my toking buddy a lot lately. Also, I absolutely don't know what to do with my life because I am not the smartest student. I wanted to be a dentist but it takes like 10 years of education and I feel like only naturally smart people can do it. The only well paying career with not too much education is being an Accountant. That's probably going to be me in 10 years. Stuck in a cubicle for 60 hours a week making 80K alone and wasting my time away. I know everyone says go for what you want to be but that's not really realistic. Sure, I want to be an astronaut and I want to study rocks or study antarctica but will I find a job? Will I make a decent salary? Probably not. With this economy its crucial to pick your careers wisely. Anyways, I feel like I am ranting on now so any help or advice would be very much appreciated. Thanks!